In many ways.
I've been kinda busy.
But also this blog is nearly 3 years old. I started it whilst busy procrastinating during my 1st Year exam period. Oh how much has changed! So much has happened.
At the same time very little has changed.
I'm still studying the evolution of English, or I was. That exam was eeeeevil. He wanted an essay on a question that could be effectively answered in depth in a single paragraph. Language exams are still hell. Though I'd give my left foot to be doing the 1st year exams instead of the final year ones, which went to hell in a handcart with my degree.
I waved it goodbye as I had a panic attack. >.<
But come Thursday at 3:10PM it's all over.
4 years of Lancaster done and dusted. Bish, bash, and bosh.
It doesn't feel very real. In fact the unreality is somewhat overwhelming. I can honestly say that I'm both so very ready for it, and busily legging it towards the nearest TARDIS at the same time.
If I never have to write an essay again it'll be too soon, the particular peculiar stress of total irregularity and structureless time can happily fall off a cliff into the abyss. But at the same time I'll miss the freedom, the social life and lying in 'til midday being a socially acceptable thing. (Oh my love of lie-ins and Naps - possibly more legendary than Romeo's lust for Juliet.) Having to get a job... a prospect that fills me with the same sort of excitement as 3 hour German language exams... (has anyone got a spare cliff I can jump off?)... looms large above me and apparently there's no such thing as a professional book reader.
When I started this blog 3 years ago I honestly had no idea I'd still be at it in 4th year. I expected I'd be bored of it by the end of the summer. And though I sometimes forget, I still enjoy it, and even though the quality is somewhat variable I hope you still enjoy my ramblings, disjointed as they often are. Very little planning goes into their execution, as is often evident. But I guess practise makes perfect and if I put a little more effort into actually blogging more often it'd improve.
Being honest is key I guess. Obviously there's a line between private and public and you've got to be careful with the whole over sharing thing, which is another reason for my lack of regular blogs. I get worried you'd get super bored with the mundanity of my very boring, very average life. Because despite doing the odd really cool thing, that's what it is.
Despite that fact,every life is unique. In between the being born, the paying taxes and dying bits, which are fairly universal. In the past 3 years I've been on this crazy roller-coaster of a learning curve which sometimes thought it was a hyperblaster type ride, ( i.e. "lets fling you up into amazing highs before plunging you into oblivion"), and along the way I've made friends from all corners of the world and learned so much. Very little of it academic.
The thing I'll miss most will be seeing the AMAZING people I've befriended here. This year has been very hard in that some of those people graduated last year and weren't here being awesome; looking at you Hannah and Amy! But despite that I've battled on through strengthening other friendships and forging new ones. I'm not gonna get too mushy now, because I'm tired and it would be embarrassing for all parties. So I shall save it.
For when typing makes me cry.
But yeah, the next 4 weeks are super full of awesome happenings so I shall be blogging about them lots. AAAAAND Beth and Brown shall return. I have read so many books recently but not had time to talk about them so I will aim for a blog a day on there. If you have no idea what I'm talking about click HERE and inform yourself.
So until I post from freedom!
Much Love!
Bethx
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