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Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Happy 3rd Birthday Planet Beth!

Today my blog is 3! This time 3 years ago I was bored with revising for 1st year exams and so I started this nonsense in a moment of procrastination. Hopefully you've enjoyed it thus far, I intend to keep going with it :)
I definitely didn't expect to have started a second blog, which again I intend to keep going for your enjoyment. Because that's the sort of lovely person I am.

Anyway:

FREEDOM!
FREIHEIT!
LIBERTÉ!

I Never have to write another academic exam - EVER AGAIN! My Joy is unbridled.
PUBBAGE! LATE NIGHTS! Obscenely late lie-ins! Baking! Parties and book reading! Writing CV's and Job applications!

...Wait no! Not the last one. No Jobs! I don't want one of those! I wish to be a lady of leisure, a professional shopping , book reading, late sleeping, individual of means for a while longer. Along while longer.

Well, sort of. It does kinda get boring after a week when no-one else is avaliable to socialise. That and I'm rather good at this whole work notion, even if sometimes I hate it to the point it makes me simultaneously both homicidal and suicidal - Go on put that radio on again - I dare you. I dare you...
Lets just say I strongly disliked Warehousing.
 But if anyone has need of a lanky multilingual 22yr old; I'm available for hire. Please somebody give me a job? Please? 

In the meantime I'm enjoying doing things like reading and writing and staring at my guitar. Which I'd love to be able to play properly but can't and really want to so if anyone wants to have a laugh at me and attempt to teach me That'd be great :) I would reward you with Cake. Lots of Cake.

2nd Order of Business. I went "out" out on Friday, for the first time in forever and had a really awesome time.It just proves that going out is all about who you go with and not where you go. Also the fact that the music was pure cheese really helped, there was a lot of this sort of dancing:
Kit and Hannah modelling some serious moves there. :P




I did have a full drafted out blog to post but it was sort of time limited and errr... I wasn't very proactive in posting because I was too busy having fun. 
Talking of fun, I've had immense fun on here for the last 3 years and I hope you don't mind ramblings too much because I'm going to keep doing it. Along with my other little writing projects which might if a) you're very good and b) I feel its good enough, will make an appearance on here :)
I'm kind of giddy and full of German food at the moment so I may be getting repetitive so I'm going to toddle off and do the washing up that making excellent noms inccurs....
Bethx 

Monday, June 2, 2014

It's been awhile...`

In many ways.

I've been kinda busy.

But also this blog is nearly 3 years old. I started it whilst busy procrastinating during my 1st Year exam period. Oh how much has changed! So much has happened.
At the same time very little has changed.
I'm still studying the evolution of English, or I was. That exam was eeeeevil. He wanted an essay on a question that could be effectively answered in depth in a single paragraph.  Language exams are still hell. Though I'd give my left foot to be doing the 1st year exams instead of the final year ones, which went to hell in a handcart with my degree.
I waved it goodbye as I had a panic attack. >.<
But come Thursday at 3:10PM it's all over.
4 years of Lancaster done and dusted. Bish, bash, and bosh.

It doesn't feel very real. In fact the unreality is somewhat overwhelming. I can honestly say that I'm both so very ready for it, and busily legging it towards the nearest TARDIS at the same time.
If I never have to write an essay again it'll be too soon, the particular peculiar stress of total irregularity and structureless time can happily fall off a cliff into the abyss. But at the same time I'll miss the freedom, the social life and lying in 'til midday being a socially acceptable thing. (Oh my love of lie-ins and Naps - possibly more legendary than Romeo's lust for Juliet.) Having to get a job... a prospect that fills me with the same sort of excitement as 3 hour German language exams... (has anyone got a spare cliff I can jump off?)... looms large above me and apparently there's no such thing as a professional book reader.

When I started this blog 3 years ago I honestly had no idea I'd still be at it in 4th year. I expected I'd be bored of it by the end of the summer. And though I sometimes forget, I still enjoy it, and even though the quality is somewhat variable I hope you still enjoy my ramblings, disjointed as they often are. Very little planning goes into their execution, as is often evident. But I guess practise makes perfect and if I put a little more effort into actually blogging more often it'd improve.
Being honest is key I guess. Obviously there's a line between private and public and you've got to be careful with the whole over sharing thing, which is another reason for my lack of regular blogs. I get worried you'd get super bored with the mundanity of my very boring, very average life. Because despite doing the odd really cool thing, that's what it is.
Despite that fact,every life is unique. In between the being born, the paying taxes and dying bits, which are fairly universal. In the past 3 years I've been on this crazy roller-coaster of a learning curve which sometimes thought it was a hyperblaster type ride, ( i.e. "lets fling you up into amazing highs before plunging you into oblivion"), and along the way I've made friends from all corners of the world and learned so much. Very little of it academic.

The thing I'll miss most will be seeing the AMAZING people I've befriended here. This year has been very hard in that some of those people graduated last year and weren't here being awesome; looking at you Hannah and Amy! But despite that I've battled on through strengthening other friendships and forging new ones. I'm not gonna get too mushy now, because I'm tired and it would be embarrassing for all parties. So I shall save it.
For when typing makes me cry.

But yeah, the next 4 weeks are super full of awesome happenings so I shall be blogging about them lots. AAAAAND Beth and Brown shall return. I have read so many books recently but not had time to talk about them so I will aim for a blog a day on there. If you have no idea what I'm talking about click HERE and inform yourself.

So until I post from freedom!
Much Love!

Bethx

Saturday, April 26, 2014

In Memoriam

Once upon what feels like far too long ago, there was a bunch of seriously awesome misfits who hung out together everyday, looked out for one another, and even when they didn't always get along, they, like siblings, stuck up ferociously for one another should some one dare to judge or insult one of their own.

It was called The Cube.

There strong bonds were forged. Those bonds remain.

Yesterday we lost a friend far too young.

A talented, creative individual, whose wicked sense of humour made everyone laugh. A girl full of life, kindness and loyalty.

The shock will wear off, the grief become bearable, but the memories will never fade.

At this time my thoughts go out to her family and my love to all those closest to her.

India,
You will be missed.

Saturday, April 12, 2014

How to tell that you are a victim of final year.

1. You have not left the house other than to go to the corner shop in several days. 
2. When you do try to leave the house your keys have gone into hibernation. 
3. Your house has been procrasticleaned to within an inch of its life except essay corner. 
4. You have an essay corner
5. You've been sat at a computer so long that having to form actual sentences has become a chore. 
6. Your best friend can't stand your ear worm any longer 
7. Your best friend is running round randomly shouting the name they just made up for your idiolect. "Bethanese!!!"
8. You've run out of biscuits. The world has come to an end. 
9. You still have no idea what you're actually talking about in this essay; despite having more research than someone trying to cure cancer and about 1000 words on it. 
10. You still have 2 more essays to write. 
11. Going to town is a major event. 
12. Your bedroom looks like a bomb exploded in your wardrobe. 
13. There is too much blood in your coffee stream. 
14. Your readings are so confusing/boring you frequently fall asleep on them. 
15. You are procrastiblogging. 
16. Your social life mainly consists of having other people in the room whilst you stare blankly/beaver away at your essay.
17. You are married to the library. It is a tempestuous relationship. 
18. Even your leisure reading has been consumed by your degree.
19. You're so busy academically you've forgotten to apply for any jobs
20. You dream in your subject(s), because dreaming about teaching the IPA* in German to French toddlers whilst chasing a big bird round the library is perfectly normal. 
*International Phonetic Alphabet

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

An ode to an old musical friend:

You may know I love books, if you've read this blog from the beginning you may know I love music. My iPod is my constant companion, I have a beautiful pair of Sennheisers with incredible sound quality.

What you may not know is who my favourite band are. 
You may well be wondering what prompted what I can safely say is about to be a gushing song of love.

Paramore is that what. 

Regardless of the bands various dramas, or your opinions of its front woman, the music they put out never ceases to capture my imagination and cause some serious rocking out. It started just over 6 years ago and as you can see I have gathered their entire back catalogue (plus the digital stuff). But why blog about this now?

Well, after spending a 12 hour day in the hallowed stacks of learning that is the Lancaster University Library* listening to albums on YouTube and sporadically doing work, Hannah and I ended up in our local CD and DVD emporium this morning. 
I had a list of things I wanted. What I didn't expect to find was this:

(Apologies for terrible photo skills). This is Paramore. At their Finest. Live and touring their Riot! album. Which for reasons I still don't fully understand is my favourite album ever. EVER. 
I still don't know how I had managed not to get my mitts on their only live album and DVD, but it seemed ridiculous and so it kinda marched itself to the till and jumped into my bag more decidedly than a £2 full sized tub of Ben and Jerry's Phish Food.

I don't know what I was expecting of it really, I've seen these guys live, THEY ARE EPIC. It seems to be a thing that short people, who just to spite their diminutive stature have a HUGE presence. Hayley Williams is one such short person, and that physical presence translates to audio. Somehow I had forgotten just HOW GOOD they are live. I clearly need to see them again.

Riot, even 2 albums and 1 EP later still remains their best work, it is full of attitude and stands apart lyrically - probably because its the one album the band has put out that doesn't feature Williams bitching about one or other of her band mates; former or current.
I was introduced to Paramore in early 2008, so I can say with no small amount of relief say, I knew them BEFORE Decode. 
Had I not already fallen head over heels for this band, their involvement with "those" films would probably put me off in the long term. 
Aaaaanyway,my 16 year old self picked up Riot!,(incidentally the last album I ever bought in a branch of Woolworths), took it home and loaded it in to her still relatively new 1st iPod and was blown away. This was exactly what I had been looking for musically, punk rock, sung not snarled, by a girl with an epic voice, that had attitude to spare. I subjected my entire family to it. In what counts for high praise, my father quite likes it and isn't bothered when we attack the car stereo with it. Mum on the other hand...

Today's acquisition, I haven't been to bed yet so it's still Tuesday by my reckoning, plays with what I believe the musical folks call the "arrangement" of some of the various songs. And somehow makes it better, something I previously believed impossible. (Urgh the cliché- look everyone gets slight tunnel vision about their favourite band) The intro to my favourite song Crushcrushcrush is slightly different and more low key before launching full pelt into the chorus. The song resonated on a very personal level back in'08 and has remained awesome and very personal; the song Hallelujah gets mashed up with a beautiful intro cover of Leonard Cohen's song of the same name, that worked so perfectly in juxtaposition I made silly noises of glee. 

It is perhaps obvious by their genre but, Paramore are not a band that produce Beyoncé levels of live gloss, you wouldn't want them to. The raw energy, passion and crazy fun is far more exciting and warming than any piece of high theatre that most pop acts pour so much attention into on their tours these days, live spectacle is one thing but you see some one live for the music, the music and the artists enthusiasm for it should be the spectacle, rather than 50 undoubtedly talented, but ultimately pointless back-up dancing monkeys dancers. Though actual dancing monkeys would be pretty cool.

I am not immune to the changes in the band, the recent upheaval made me worry about whether the band would continue to put out material I actually liked, and if I'm brutally honest I was deeply uncertain of 2013's self titled album when I first put it in my CD player (I have a thing about physical copies of things and CD players) I felt disappointed. 
Change is not really my thing, yet as I listened to it again the next couple of times it began to grow on me and now there are several tracks I really love, but unlike its predecessors it isn't one I will play from beginning to end without skipping. Sonically its much more upbeat. Lyrically its much the same. But the changes in the band were to the composition side so it is then somewhat unsurprising. Williams' constant presence means that the lyrics aren't going to change that much. Her signature style will remain stamped all over the band's output; and that's not a bad thing.

Riot! however remains awesome. I will never not love it. It will be the album my children get sick of in the car, and I shall not be sorry.

For now however I must return to the "Misery Business" of essay writing. (oh the puns!!!)
At least I have an awesome soundtrack.
Much Love,
Bethx

*If you can't smell the sarcasm here you've probably got a cold, the stacks of Lancaster's Library are well known to be home to actual birds, who have taken flaky old unread journals to make their nests in its various unused dusty forgotten aisles. There is something quite disconcerting about writing an essay to the strains of Bird song in the library.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Silbilance: Spring,Sugar and Sun

Today is a day for listening to Michael Bublé songs, sitting outside and eating ice cream.

My friends, spring has sprung. Roughly 3 weeks earlier than last ear when the world's was still blanket in icy, wet, snow.

Of the list I gave in the opening sentence only one of those activities is of great importance to me. And it is that activity I am prevented from doing. Because I my friends have cut out sugar.

I hate myself, life, the universe, and everything. Unfortunately my aversion to healthy food had to be cured and drastic measures were necessary. I am allowed one sweet treat a week. 1. Because the cake man (@cottage_cakes) is a wonderous miracle to which my time enjoying is now limited and 2. Chloe fears I would become both depressed and homicidal see were I to not have some form of sugar fix. For the duration of lent I am sugar free. This will be a very long 4 weeks, that will hopefully see an improvement in my health in general, perhaps I will begin to eat fruit because I like it, and not because every so often I feel I ought.

Now as the queue for wallings' ice creams lengthens and the students seat themselves upon the steps I shall eat my piffling salad and cry dejectedly as the boy opposite continues to consume his iced bun.
The sun is shining at least.

Beth xxx

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Good Grief! A Blog!

Ouch. My head hurts. I have a migraine which will not go away. Its beginning to get tiresome.
Particularly when ones day is as mad as today: Exam and FINALLY placement. Which couldn't be further away if it tried. I understand that there must be schools in all corners of a town but mine is practically in Yorkshire. Or it feels like it as I walk there. Uphill, all the way. Turns out I didn't need that gym membership...
Other than this however I haven't really done much of note other than fit for my right to a treadmill in the gym. HALF AN HOUR ONLY WHEN ITS BUSY MR I SHALL RUN FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF! *noises of rage* spent more time waiting than I did actually working out. grrrrr I mean I pay enough you'd think the gym was twice the size it is. Grrrrrr hopefully tomorrow myself and The Brown will be heading to Pilates together. As apparently i need to do stuff like that, as it will calm my mind and give me balance and... lots of other stuff... I refuse to do Yoga for precisely that reason. They spout endless gubbins that would make me either, irritated, angry or bored. Or all three.

Shall we talk about the weather? Let us discuss the wind. That prevented me from acquiring chocolate, when there were 3 hormonal, grumpy added women in my living room.  I'm sat here now in county listening to the wind moaning around the building listening to Kit telling us facts like sloths only poop once a week and I'm really rather content to be just hanging out with cool people. In away I haven't felt since 2nd year so I'm happy. :)

Just don't ask about my plans for the future. Then I will turn in a puddle of argh..
Shall I teach, should I publish, should I hide under the stairs?
Help!
Bethx

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Creativity and such like

I love writing. The furious, fluid process of scratching ink on to paper, racing to keep up with your thought stream, organic physical connection between thought and thinker, write and reader, a purpose an irregular beauty of raw unfiltered opinion and emotion. Writing is my catharsis and therapy. When safely anonymised you can pour out your soul to the page, a page that will not judge, comment, or tease, it will just, like a mirror, reflect your demons, give them corporeal form and the means to obliterate them. Slash them, tear them up, burn it in a cleansing fire, drown it in consuming waters or simply just lock it in a prison of your choice between the covers of a journal.
Empty your head on to the page, purge the clogged thought ways and just like a defragged computer, or freshly emptied vacuum the brain functions at full capacity once more. Yes it's temporary but tell me, is your method any longer lasting?
It's not not about eloquence, style, or even good grammar, its the freedom of your own expression and creativity.
And that's why I always carry a notebook and a fountain pen.
Just in case.  You never know when inspiration might strike and your magnum opus begin to take form. In the meantime I shall continue honing my skill. Even if I should be analysing vowel formants...

And that's why I like books. Books are the embodiment of those rudimental scratchings that our brain decodes into sense. I am in awe of those who can weave a world out of pure imagination, who are brave enough to share the world inside their head with others, who open the doors and say "come meet my friends" who aren't afraid to talk back to the voices in their heads, who can plan a story from beginning to end, that isn't tired cliché, outright terrible or just plain indulgent and that have the patience and dedication to write to the end instead of having thousands of beginnings and no ends. just such as I do.

And until I have my own end. I don't think I'll write one.

Beth xx

Sunday, January 26, 2014

New Blog!

Hi Blog fans!
As I realise this is a form of therapy I should indulge in more often I hereby declare I'll try and keep you more up to date with the ins and outs of being a student. But the big news it this: Hannah Brown and I have started another blog! It's called Beth & Brown's Beautiful bookshelf and we're going to be doing all our favourite book stuff on there :) We may branch out into films too, though books are mainly what's on the shelf for now :) I'll post more about it when it's up and running :)

In other news I've found my beloved watch which the resident house gremlins stole, had a career rethink a nice nasty shock and discovered that occasionally my iPod will play angry music when I need it to xD

TTFN
 Beth xx